When life unexpectedly changes, it is easy for a person to immediately kick and scream like a child throwing a tantrum, and try to fight against what they cannot control; for that is often easier than accepting the fact that they cannot control the future. These past few months, I have had a firsthand opportunity to experience this battle between apprehension and acceptance in the face of change. Every day, I had two options: If I looked down, an onslaught of self-pity and apprehension was sure to ensue, yet I found peace when I looked up in acceptance. It was a daily choice, and an ever-waging battle; and still, sometimes, when doubt whispers in my ear and the dark clouds of apprehension gather overhead, I taste the salty tears of defeat once again. The fact is, when we try to control the future and that which cannot be controlled, we will only find ourselves in the clutches of fear, and we will not be able to escape from anxiety’s groping talons. However, if we choose instead to accept that it is beyond our control—for we do indeed have a choice—we might just discover peace within that acceptance. Even though, before we moved, I often found myself paralyzed by the unknown, I found peace and victory over fear when I chose to accept that God is sovereign and He knows what He is doing. In this life, the seas of change will rage ferociously, and the unknown will loom; but there is One who already knows the future, and He is able to bring peace in the midst of the storm. He freely offers peace and victory over fear to all people, and He asks only that they would put their trust in Him. Acceptance is a process, and it will take choosing to believe the best over anxiety about the future again and again; but I found that it is worth laying down my plans to accept God’s plan, for in acceptance lies peace.
Excerpt from an essay I recently wrote, quote from Mountain of Spices by Hannah Hurnard, picture ©ClaraChristofferson